it still needs a title...

He watches
As her life slips
Falling
Into the darkest pits of hell
Only to return
To this familiar place
Begging for help
As well as forgiveness
She trips,
Old habits die hard
Wondering,
Is this her only choice?
Arms holding tight
Please don't let go
Begging for hope
Pleading for life
She can,
But will she stop?
Chances
Taken time and time again
Same results:
A careless mind
begging to see white
In non-uniform lines.

Memories

Memories
Of a haunted past
That stayed hidden
For years and years
Finally brought to light
For the innocent to see.
Memories
Of childhood fun
Darkened by his smile
That can be seen
From miles away
She could not escape his gaze.
Memories
She knew were there
But denied each day
Unsure of when and how
Her life was forever changed
To this very day
Memories
Of Innocence
And dangers - Unaware
Brought to an end
By a single touch
From his filthy hand.
The Memory
Floods the mind today
Of a not so innocent girl
Left to trip and fall
In a world
Darkened by a smile.

10.7.08

9.30.08

Falling down
Seeing only white
Can it break my fall?
Breathing deep
To forget the pain
White turns to black
An absence of color
Replaces my world
Once present with all
Glossy eyes
A stupid smile
Wasting life again
Loving every moment
But forgetting each that passed
Fighting to remember
But the brain cells are going fast.

My Demon

Staring into the eyes of a Demon
That have captured me
Time and Time again.
I see no easy escape.
My gaze,
locked to his,
Searches his mind,
For a time long ago,
When he was so easy to love.
That time,
forever gone.
Nothing is easy about,
The Demon,
making each breath
even more complicated than the last
Love no longer exists.
Lust remains in the mind of the Demon.
Lust,
never-ending,
that started even before the brief
Moments of love,
that may have never existed
in the mind
of
MY Demon.

I write... to get over u...

This is what its like,
To love someone
I want to hate.
This is how it is,
To be lied to,
By my truthful one.
This is how it feels,
To have these tears,
Running down my face.
To be forgotten,
By the one who,
Said ‘I’ll never leave.’
Just another time,
When love really,
Means I hate.
More hurt from one,
Who promised to,
Keep away my fear.
I get it, you’re gone,
And you don’t care,
If I fade away.

*Gag*

i hate this one... but w/e idc anymore

See the scars

Hear the lies

Of life she is afraid

Feel the hurt

Cause the pain

Don’t let her slip away

Taste of the salt

Of her tears

That she cried everyday

Smell the rose

Her loved ones brought

No tears come from their eyes

The bright smile

On her face

Shall be there forever more

Thoughts of her

Fade away

As the world continues on

My Desire

My Desire

With each step I take
I fade more
Into the nothing that I am.
I slowly disappear
And I don’t cry for help.
This is what I wanted
From the very start
My desire from long ago
To not be noticed
Or even seen
And the only thing ever heard
Would be the echo of my screams.

8/28/2007

Hidden Escape

Hidden Escape

Your sweet voice in my ear
The soft touch of your hand
I close my eyes
And the storm seems to fade
Nothing matters anymore
Because you’re by my side
You promise no harm
And a reason to smile
No need for tears
And fears can disappear
You’re the escape that I needed
The one that’s been hidden away
I’ve searched for so long
And I’ve finally found you.

8-21-07

Tears being shed
Over broken promises
That you could never keep.
Regret taking over
The mind that was once free
To wander in happiness.
Silent moments
Turning into hours
Of not a word being said.
Hidden fears of life
Seem to creep from the dark
Reminding me I’m not alone.
Memories begin to haunt
And what smiles that were left
Fade into the shadows.
Nothing here now
Only a river of bloody tears
To remind us of our past.

8-18-07